this weekend my brother got his first tattoo (with a homemade gun)... a replica of my elephant but instead of a heart, he put my name.

i think this is the greatest thing anyone has ever done for me and when i go to visit him i will most definitely get his name tattooed on me as well with that same crappy gun (different needle, though!).




other than that, things are real good and for the most part, i am happy. just patiently waiting for warmer weather and a summer trip to the west coast to visit my friends.

- i am very much in love and it's quite possibly the greatest thing ever. i think i have found the dude i have been waiting a very long time to find.
- living with my best friend rules and i am so excited that it might happen again next year. i want her in my everyday life forever.
- a lot of my thoughts these days revolve around having a dog in my life. i think it might happen sooner than i think. the other day my stepmom told me that i've had puppy in my blood for a really long time. its true.
- i'm sewing a giant quilt by hand for my niece. i was hoping to have it done by christmas but i really dont think that will happen. this quilt is going to drive me insane. but i am enjoying it.
- in a week i will be 22 years old.
- in five months i'll be a college graduate.
- i am looking forward to a new bike, a little pickup, growing so many things on our porch, being done with my thesis, having no homework and no class, adventures with benny etc etc etc. but this is all months away.
- for right now i am real excited about being in new hampshire and being with my family & neighbors and all of the delicious vegan food i am going to be consuming in an hour. i am also real excited about spending the cold winter under lots of warm blankets with benny and kelly and all of my other dear friends.

my mailing address has once again changed so if you are planning on sending me a letter or if you would like to exchange letters for the first time, you should direct all mail to the address below. if you send something, i promise i will send something nice in return.

32 ashcroft street #2
jamaica plain, ma 02130



yesterday was my first day of classes. first thing in the morning i ventured to the library to check my email where i was immediately approached by a dude who first asked if i rode bikes and then proceeded to totally try and flatter me, write me a ridiculous poem (which included the line "a cycle riding sexual mistress") and then without any hesitation kissed me. it was quite possibly the most ridiculous thing that has ever happened to me at school.

i have a feeling this is going to be a funny year.

yo dudes the flea market is THIS saturday (april 15). kelly and i will be there selling things but unfortunately not as many things as last time. but we will have some new designs and we will have a whole bunch of potted herbs! so please come out and please tell all yer friends!!


Punk Rock Flea Market 8
Saturday April 15th, 2006 - All Ages, 11am - 5pm, $1
Mass College of Art, 621 Huntington Avenue, Boston MA
Its a whole lot of people in a room, selling a bunch of stuff.

Who's selling stuff? These people are! Books, records, movies, junk, original artwork,
and a TON of original, hand-made clothing from local designers. Shmurban Smoutfitters
can eat an egg. They ripped off a local Boston designer hardcore, and that kind of
stuff happens all the time. Thus its very important to come to events like this and buy
direct from the artists! We're not just trying to sell some shirts and records, we're
building a self-sustaining DIY arts and music culture / economy. Boston is on the rise,
get down with it. Even if you don't spend a penny past the $1.00 admission, you've
already helped. Seeing all these people from various backgrounds together under
one roof is amazing. Make new friends, art buddies, doing-it buddies, and so on.
Buying something at PRFM is like investing in a 401k of morals and personal pride.
SEE YOU THERE! Punks, not punks, indies, trans, preops, repubs, dems, greens,
metal dudes, riotgrrls, the press, collectors, lurkers, n00bs, todds, jens, all welcome!

ate another delicious vegan cookie, sat in the grass of a beautiful park where there were plenty of adorable babies and dogs, was given folders of documents that were both unexpected and totally mindblowing (in the best way possible), met and talked with a number of incredible men who were involved with the gi movement/various other social movements (one dude was the founder of one of the biggest southern civil rights organizations of the 1960's! whoa!), got the phone number for the first american woman who was a vietnam war resistor (whoa!!), shared cute eye contact and was then both approached and complimented by this real cute lady, experienced dusk during a perfect summer day (while walking by a lilac bush where there was a cute dog sleeping underneath with a beautiful sunset in the background) and remembered why its my absolute favorite time of day.

right now i am in nashville staying in a hotel with the worlds largest guitar shaped indoor swimming pool. i have also eaten the best vegan cookie of my life, comfortably worn a shortsleeve tshirt in real warm weather for the first time in too long, and (the real reason why i am here) interviewed five different people about their lives thirty years ago (one of these dudes is now a hairdresser who owns his own salon and he got excited when we started talking about celebrity sightings in nashville. it totally ruled). also thank you northeastern for paying for this trip... i cant wait to eat delicious food tonight and have my school pick up the bill!

i spent valentines day with the perdiest lady on the east coast. it was real nice.

the punk rock flea market is THIS SATURDAY! which means that i am going to be spending basically every waking moment from now until then in front of a sewing machine or in front of our little homemade printing press. please come out to buy some nice handmade crafty things or just to say hi! tell all yer friends too! seriously!


Punk Rock Flea Market 7
Saturday December 10th 2005
Massachusetts College of Art Pozen Center
621 Huntington Avenue, Boston MA
Main door is on the Evans Way Road side-street
11am-5pm, open to the public, all ages, $1
more vendor info on honeypump.net
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Guest DJs including Boston's Derby Dames Roller-girls
and Al Quint of Suburban Voice punk-zine
tons of diy crafts, record distros, artwork, clothing, junk, etc
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General / About
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PRFM is a..sort of regular DIY event, where record distros, book makers, artists, clothing designers, djs, junk hoarders, vegan bakers, and many others come together for a day of swapping, sharing, selling
and buying things you won't find in any store. PRFMs in the past have had upwards of 90 vendors, and regularly have 50 or so. A wide range of people take part, from new clothing labels looking to make it big,
to basement punks who don't care about you, or your stupid money.

The event was founded by Ben Sisto / Honeypump in 2002 as a small swap among friends, and has since grown to be quite a large-scale opperation. Currently, HP works with Kris Palumbo and Eventworks to make the event well rounded, well run, and awesome.

* Money raised at PRFM will in part become grant-funds for young artists at the college. Our thanks go out to Kris for giving PRFM a good cause, and to the faculty of Mass Art for their continued support
of community events.

today i turn 21 years of age.

a whole lot has happened within the past year and life is a whole lot different than it was 365 days ago... but i can still rely on my ladies (and quite a few dudes as well) and i can still rely on my family and i can still rely on this gosh darn neverending hopeless crush that just wont go away (same hopeless crush as one year ago, different boy).

so let's eat some delicious cake and let's drink some silk nog and let's celebrate another year that's passed cause they just seem to be going so quick. before you know it we'll all be old and grey so let's celebrate these years, these days when we have the chance.


edit: what a great birthday this was. a lunch date complete with a vegan brownie and good company, a dinner date complete with a malaysian restaurant and my favorite person in the entire world, and then my first 21+ event (YEAH!) where i was completely overwhelmed by micah playing his guitar and singing his song. the night then ended in the greatest possible way and now i am all pumped up and not ready to sleep even though i know i should. basically.. best birthday ever.

thank you all for your kind birthday words! they are appreciated so much. so much!

today i got a check in the mail for $75 because for a month i was a good research study participant and brushed my teeth twice a day with special toothpaste.

i have so much homework to do that it's kind of unreal. when i am not in class i am either at the library doing homework or sitting in my bed doing homework. this is what it's been like for the past two weeks and this is what it's going to be like for the next two weeks. i am kind of going crazy. im not sure if i can handle all these papers and quizzes and readings. seriously though. this is ridiculous.

also.. do any of you have any yarn laying around that you are not using and would be willing to let me take off of yer hands for you? if so, i will send you something nice in return!

dear kyle kubas,

happy fuckin' birthday! i love you. alot!

love,
yer friend alice.

i think i'm gonna make this journal friends only for awhile.

last night i sat on some big rocks and looked out into the ocean and it ruled cause the sky was real pretty and cause the girl sitting next to me was real pretty too. on one side of us there were all these fireflies flying around in the woods and on the other side of us there were all these fireworks going off on the opposite coast. we were thinking maybe we'd sleep there but that didnt happen mostly cause there were so many bugs and they just kept on biting us. instead we walked around and around at night and we stayed up late whispering about boys and i tried to call some of my friends on the telephone but i didnt have any of those reception bars. blair rules and i wanna spend all my days with her.

yesterday i lost my wallet somewhere between here and portland maine (total bummer!) but it's okay because that same night i got to hug some of my best friends and i got to sing along to some of my favorite bands.

ive been spending the days getting my hands dirty on a farm in exchange for whatever vegetables i would like to bring home with me. i'm so pumped about this place and it's only been a little less than a week. im surrounded by wonderful, appreciative people who can teach me so much. it rules.

something has been eating the broccoli in the garden here at my house. not cool! im hoping that this weekend i can find a little time to build some sort of fence and hopefully keep the critters out and away from our vegetables!


coming soon..
- visits from christie and gabe and andrew! yes!
- a little puppy to hangout with.
- (finally) teaching myself to silkscreen.
- an aquabats show.

i've been home for almost a week..

- today i saw kyle for the last time until september and although hanging out with her ruled.. the idea of not seeing her for months is a total bummer.
- laura now lives 10 minutes away from me and i just wanna watch the oc and drink milkshakes with her every day.
- in a few weeks i'll be able to hangout with and take care of an 8 week old puppy every day and get paid for it. what? yeah.
- the weather has been so ridiculous.. more hot and humid than i ever remember new hampshire being. it's so gross.
- why are there so many mosquitos? i wake up every night with at least 10 more bites than i had the night before.
- blair lives so close but is still so far away. thinking about it makes me anxious and makes me feel like a bad friend and makes me want to jump in my car and drive there right now.
- but gas is so fucking expensive. sooo expensive.
- ive been listening to the get up kids, the impossibles and gorilla biscuits almost exclusively.
- katharine came home today!! gabe comes home in a few weeks!! my best friends are pretty awesome and i cant wait to hangout.
- i'm selling my bass and i'm selling a bunch of old books.. this is because i need a good amount of money to get this tattoo on my chest and i would like for this to happen sooner rather than later. if you want to buy a bass please buy mine. if you want to buy some history books please buy mine.
- i think i am done with crushes for good.



tonight i am bummin' pretty hard but im trying not to dwell on things and im trying not to let shit get me down. i need to swim in the rain (because the water always feels warmer when it's raining) and i need to go to sleep early tonight.

i am home.

after flying out of gevena this morning and after riding on a bus from one london airport to the other... they tell us our flight to boston is canceled. they tell us that they have rebooked us and that we'll be getting into boston tomorrow afternoon. kelly & i looked at eachother and said 'are you fucking kidding me' and then told eachother that no matter what we were going to be in boston tonight.

after flying from london to new york i managed to get a flight from new york to manchester and now here i am. sitting in my own bed in my underwear because for some reason new hampshire is really fucking hot and muggy.

ive been up for 24 hours and this morning i was in switzerland but honestly right now it feels like i never even left new hampshire in the first place. the past month has been really ridiculous and i am honestly so happy to be finished traveling for right now.

im so tired that i cant think straight and all i want is for kelly to come walking around the corner and into my room. we've been away from eachother for only about four hours now but i miss her so much already. it feels like half of me isn't there.

i am home. i am so stinky. i have one dread and a backpack full of swiss chocolate.
let's hangout and have the greatest summer ever.

being away from home makes me have insane dreams..

last night i dreamt that p. diddy invited me over to his house and we talked about our favorite books and he brought out three by camus but on the cover of the books there were just pictures of dead prez. i got real pumped and then he told me that he thinks of people like mirrors.. you can see right through them and usually there's nothing behind it, but i was a different type of mirror because he knew there was something behind the reflection. then we talked about running a marathon and after i told him that i totally want to run one like he did, he brought me onto his bed and we cuddled while reading calvin and hobbes. dude i was so sad when i woke up. holding p. diddy's hand ruled!! i wish i had dreams like that every night.

things are getting better, slowly.

we are realizing that we need to stop freaking out and start breathing more and taking our time. stop making silly decisions that just end up with us spending two days in the creepiest french city ever.

we are realizing that we've both fallen in love with a german boy and want to marry him and spend the days just laughing so hard all of the time. we're crossing our fingers that he'll surprise us and show up in como on sunday.

soon we will be in switzerland and that is going to rule so hard. there is even a chance that my brother may come from germany and spend a day or two with us! holy shit that would rule.

last night i talked to ryan on the telephone and it made so happy but so sad at the same time. dude seriously. i miss my best friend!

europe is weird and the dudes need to stop being so creepy!! aahh!

basically..

we ended up leaving the farm after only half of the days we planned on being there. this was for many reasons. the main ones being that.. we felt that we were unwelcome and that our work wasnt being appreciated. also one of the owners of the farm is probably the most arrogant jerk i have ever met in my life. when we were saying goodbye to him this morning he said something that made my whole body hurt because i just wanted to punch him or yell at him or just push him into a giant hole.

but there were very good parts about the farm. it was one of the most beautiful places i have ever been in my life. we got to sleep for free in this cute little camper with a wooden deck looking out over the italian hillside. we got free organic homecooked meals three times a day and we met some awesome people. one of them is a boy from germany who looks so much like kev that it freaks us out a whole lot. but he became a good friend and we wish he had left with us this morning. we all sat in the camper until late last night being so sleep drunk and so ridiculous. man. i miss him already.

this morning we said our goodbyes to the nice people we met at the farm and said good riddance to the mean people we met at the farm. we went with steffano to the vineyards and worked there for a few hours until the sun was hot and it was time to go. steffano picked us three roses from the rose bushes that grow alongside the grape vines. he drove us to the bus station and said caio caio caio and drove away.

now we are in florence and we have no idea where we are sleeping tonight. we have no idea where we are going for the next five days and all we want to do is meet up with bella (bizzaro kev) and frolick in the ocean.

europe so far..

london.. was very expensive and we didnt want to spend money on taking the underground so we walked all over the city. no.. we really walked all over the city. we also didnt want to spend money on a real map so we just got a free subway map and navigated that way. other than the expensive-ness.. london was pretty neat. we ate some really good vegan food and i was reunited with some of my best friends and it was so wonderful! kelly & i slept in the most comfortable bed ever in this house somewhere in the english countryside and i wish i could sleep there every night.

brussels.. we went there on a sunday so everything was closed except for a few places selling expensive meat-filled food and belgium waffles. we attempted to find this vegetarian resturant i had written down but it didnt exist. we then found a little store on this little street where we bought some vegetables and later that night i sat on the floor of our room and i peeled this big avacado with my fingers and i bit into it like an apple and it tasted better than any avacado i have ever eaten. basically.. brussels smelled a lot like pee and i thought it was kind of boring.

amsterdam.. amsterdam was really funny. as soon as we stepped out of the train station we thought we would hate it there. the first ten minutes of walking involved us complaining about how many dumb tourists/backpackers there were. we couldnt figure out how to use the tram so we walked to our hostel which was on the other side of the city and when we were walking it started to rain. amsterdam has a lot of canals and i think this is very nice. everyone rides bikes in amsterdam. and when i say everyone i mean EVERYONE. they all ride nice old crusiers which is pretty awesome. we tried to go to a show that night but the address where it was at didnt exist. it was cold and rainy outside so we just went back to our hostel and used the free internet while everyone else went to the bar (in the hostel) and got really drunk. it was kind of entertaining to watch. i wish we had been there a little longer and on a sunny day. i think i like amsterdam most of all so far.

rome.. now we are in rome. we have been here for a few hours. i dont really know what i think about it yet because we havent been here long enough. it seems real big and real confusing. we are only here until tomorrow afternoon and i would like to explore this city more but i dont think we'll have time. it's still kind of hard to believe that we are in rome, though. so weird.

tomorrow we take the train for a few hours and then get picked up by some nice people and spend about two weeks working on their farm. both kelly & i are so excited about this. it'll be really good to get out of these big cities!! after that it's off to another part of italy for a few days and then switzerland for about a week and then home.

basically we have been walking everywhere and eating a lot of bread and doing more traveling than staying in one place and we are both really exhausted. but overall.. we are both pretty pumped on life right now.